Not the news again

It is early, early morning and I cannot sleep...Roger got a call from his oncologist and his pathology report finally came back that this tumor was actually from prostate cancer...We were told that they killed it and destroyed it with the cryotherapy, and that they would send both before and after samples to Walter Reed for further testing. Roger has not been progressing like a normal surgery should progress and we have to wait too long in-between time to get results and answers...He received this answer after three phone calls to the VA asking them to please get back with us...Not the news we wanted to hear...Roger took the phone call when I was at work and he wishes that I were here to hear all what the oncologist had to say. They want him to do radiation therapy to see if that will help with the pain....I am calling Dr. Barnett, an oncologist here in Longmont (of whom Roger has seen before the VA) for a consultation ASAP to try to get another opinion and to get better help closer to home. He is trying so hard to be patient, but I know that he would like all of you to know that although he may look fine to you all, he is still in a lot of pain and that his fight is not over yet......TBC Dianne ps.....he is also scheduled for another MRI and post op wed. May 13th, the day after his 65th b-day

Not the news we wanted to hear

And the days go by

Hello everyone who reads this....the days go by in our lives so quickly......and we just want to give thanks for each and every one of them....today was one of the best days since this all began....Roger seems to be feeling a little better. I don't know whether it is because I finally had someone at the VA hospital answer me after three days of leaving messages about him....or it was just a sunny day and nothing major happened....We took Roger's bandages off today after his shower to find out that he has staples of which we were not informed of .....he won't get a post op or have them out until May 13th ...the day after his 65th b-day......come on medicare! ! ! !.....medicare has always been good to my family and I just hope they are with Roger...because guess what?....I am pulling us out of the VA as soon as we can.....He has an MRI of his lower back on the 13th as well, so we will go forth with that and then I definitely think it is time to leave the VA and get closer to home.....He has not driven or even had a beer in two months.....I know that he is missing golf, but he is getting caught up on the virtual golf aspects on TV....so watch out twin peaks mens club! ! ! !.....
My little Colbie continues to gain weight , but not enough to go home yet.....Gosh, she is a beautiful little baby.......Aunt Wilma is in Lifecare center now in Longmont and I think happy to be there with all of the attention and care.....we just could not keep her home with her needs right now and we hope and pray it is just a temporary place for her and she can return home....Everyone there was just shocked to hear why and how she got there....she is a trooper and a strong ole German women, just like her mom (my grandmother who died at age 100) a few years ago.....she is still so positive and brings hope and joy to any situation....I wish I could be more like her......
Must go for now .....have a great evening......love The Torbecks

WE LOVE FOOD

Thank you to Judy for the wonderful brownies and to Nadine and Jack for the wonderful Sunday nite dinner....it fed Roger and me and Aunt Wilma and Roger's mom Gert.....thank you it was wonderful.....Just getting ready to gear up for the week.....Colbie Marie is doing well, Colton made a Touchdown today and Roger is doing OK, but still hurting and we hope that it will be better in the next day or so.......I must return to my day job tomorrow and Aunt Wilma will be going to her Doctor to see what and how she is doing.....We are going to have to make some hard decsions regarding her long term care......She will be with us tonite and then ???? It was good for Roger to have her here and see how she is taking all of this.......Unless there is anything new I won't be writing for a few days.....we are coasting for now YEAH!!!!! coasting is good I think......dianne

all's quiet tonite on the western front

Thank you Kathi and Warren and Janel for your conerns and offer to help...we are doing ok for now, but you are more than welcome to come by and see Roger...Janel I owe you a lunch soon......Colbie is now 4lbs.8 oz.....and is now filling out her premie clothes.....I wish I knew how to post her picture...if anybody knows how to do that please speak out now....I am so computer iliterate...duh.....Roger had a pep talk from his nurse today (that be me) and I think that it may have helped because it made him mad and that is ok.....he cannot just lay and hibernate....it was ok with me for a few days...but not anymore......Aunt Wilma is sleeping soundly in Roger's big oversized recliner and loving it....she will be here for the night and Sunday until we figure out a plan B.....She never complains and if I have one patient, I might as well have two....it was just easier for me to bring her here instead of leaving Roger home alone...She was perfectly willing to come here...She also asked if the Police thought that she had been stalked before she was acosted. I really don't know.....Roger is resting and hopefully tomorrow will be a good day for everyone.....til next blog..... Dianne

another day in the lives

Did not get any sleep last night....was very grateful to AuntWilmas's wonderful neighbor ,Phil, for getting home just in the nick of time to save her....She has multiple contusions and wounds on her left and right hand and arms....a broken right hand and her purse stolen of which many important things along with money were in, but she still keeps that "miss Mary Sunshine Attitude" about her....she is in pain and wants not to be alone now.....She told the police ever since her husband died (my sweet Uncle Bud) she has never been afraid to stay alone until now....we will keep careful watch over her....thanks to my niece Kari, Cheryl and Ronnie my brother and sister......As far as Roger....I have to leave him way too much during the day, because of one thing or another .....running your own business has its good and bad....Needless to say I am way busy and I should be at home....Roger seems to still be in a lot of pain and then when he takes his morphine he seems very weak.......His appetite is not what it usually is and I am worried about his recovery....but I will be positive and keep him on the right path to being well and enjoying life again......Colbie, my littlest darling is still in the hospital, doing her best to get bigger and stay well....she has been a little conjested, Tina says, and they switched her nose feeding tube to the other nostril again.....she is now a whopping 4lbs. 6 oz. and she has recieved two baths and her cord has fallen off.....she still needs to be feeding from her mom or the bottle in order for her to go home....she has a heart murmur and the doctors are watching her carefully....not carefully enough for grandma, but what do I know? when she starts teething is when I can be of help......well must go for now.....laundry is piling up.....hope to see any of you soon......love and gratefulness Dianne

You just won't believe it

Just when you think things are finally going well and things are looking up BAM BAM. thankfully Roger is doing OK , but I had to go to work today and leave him with the phone unplugged and a note on the door...in a few days he will be more friendly....pain and morphine don't do very nice things to people.....anyway, got home late to the phone call that my Aunt WIlma had been assaulted in her own yard in daylight after she was coming home from picking Roger's mother up on their way to see us, because they had not heard from us today. She was badly injured and I spent the night at the hospital ER with her and my brother and sister. She will be ok, but her purse was stolen right off her shoulder and she was dragged and the guy ran off....we have talked to police and ER doctors all night.....I am sure that Roger is thinking that what can happen next around here? He hopefully will be up for company by Sunday....Sounds like baby Colbie is doing ok and I will get to see her tomorrow after not seeing her for a few days. My Aunt is so kind and positive that she is telling me to go home and get some rest and here I sit doing the blog, cannot go to sleep. thinking of al the people now who read this and send their good thoughts our way....Thank you very much and goodnight or is it goodmorning now? 1:30am