IT'S BEEN A WHILE

JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU THAT TIME REALLY DOES PASS VERY QUICKLY....ALL THE MORE TO LIVE EVERY DAY TO ITS COMPLETE AND UTTER FULLEST.....YEH RIGHT......IT IS A NICE SAYING BUT DO WE , ANY OF US REALLY DO THAT.????....I KNOW I AM SO GUILTY OF NOT......ENOUGH OF THE LECTURE...HERE IS THE LATEST ABOUT THE MAN I LOVE........SO VERY VERY MUCH.....

WE WERE ABLE TO GO TO MESQUI8TE THIS YEAR, BUT NOT PLAY GOLF....WE (ROGER, ME AND ROGER'S MOM) WERE ARE ABLE TO FLY TO IDAHO TO SEE ROGER'S SON AND GRANDAUGHTERS FOR ONE WEEK OVER FATHERS DAY......HE REALLY WANTED TO DO THIS AND I FOUND A WAY TO ESCAPE FROM MY WORK TO GO WITH. WEATHER WAS AWEFUL, BUT WE WERE ABLE TO SPEND TIME AND THAT WAS WHAT WAS IMPORTANT.........

GOT BACK AND OF COURSE HAD DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS( THAT IS NEVER AN UPLIFTING EXPERIENCE), ALTHOUGH ROGER'S DOCTOR IS VERY NICE....HE SEEMS TO HAVE ONLY BAD NEWS FOR US AND FULLY ADMITS THAT HE IS SO VERY SORRY THAT IS ALL HE HAS FOR ROGER........
WE NOW TAKE HIS INFORMATION AND JUST NOD OUR HEADS AND WALK OUT THE DOOR.......
THE CHEMO ROGER HAS BEEN DOING IS NOT WORKING IN HIS FAVOR AND HIS BLODD TEST SHOW THAT HIS PSA HAS TRIPLED AND THAT WAS NOT THE NEWS THE DOCTOR WANTED TO DELIVER TO US.
THERE IS REALLY NO OTHER OPTION THAN TO DO A PET SCAN, FIND OUT THE PROGRESSION OF THIS TERRIBLE DISEASE AND TO POSSIBLY GO TO DENVER FOR SOME OF THOSE TRIAL STUDIES THAT HE HAS TO QUALIFY FOR UNDER SPECIFIC RULES AND REGULATIONS. WE ARE BOTH JUST NOT READY TO TALK ABOUT ANY OF THIS UNTIL NEXT WED WHEN THE SCAN IS DONE AND THEN WE PROBABLY WONT HEAR ANYTHING FOR AT LEAST A WEEK.

THE DOCTOR IS SHAKING HIS HEAD JUST LIKE THE PEOPLE WHO SEE ROGER OFTEN....HE DOES NOT LOOK OR ACT, MOST OF THE TIME, LIKE A MAN WITH TERMINAL CANCER.......I CAN TELL HE DOESN'T FEEL WELL, BUT AGAIN HE IS NOT A COMPLAINER......SO I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW BAD IT REALLY IS

HE IS NOW ON A PATCH EVERY THREE DAYS THAT SEEMS TO KEEP HIS PAIN IN CHECK AND HE DOES HAVE TO POP A PERCOCET EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE....HIS APPETITE IS OK BUT NOT GOOD AND HE HAS LOST ABOUT 30 POUNDS.

WE TRY TO STAY POSITVE, BUT WHEN YOU ARE IN THE THICK OF THE HUNT IT IS SO VERY HARD TO KEEP UP THE ATTITUDE.

LAST SUMMER WAS A BEAR FOR HIM AND NOW WE BEGIN THIS SUMMER JUST LIKE THE OTHER ONE....
PRAY FOR PEACE AND HEALING AND REMEMBER TO LAUGH AND LOVE AND DANCE OFTEN.......IT DOES A BODY GOOD.....

WE WILL LET YOU KNOW ABOUT THE RESULTS OF THE SCAN WHEN WE KNOW MORE

LOVINGLY, DIANNE AND ROGER