HOME SWEET HOME

Just got home from the VA about 7 pm....it was quite the process to enter and quite the process to exit that place, but we got er done......Roger is of course very happy to be at home, but the car ride alone was very taxing on him (I hope it wasn't my driving, he hates how I drive who am I kidding?).....oh well he is home with more morphine and we will see the tumor doc in about 10 days and the have an MRI on May 13th and it just keeps on going.....we are feeling good about the results...only if in a week or two he can tell a difference with the pain.....we will all keep positve.....he said the only thing he needs right now is a chase lounge to sit outside when it is nice ...and then later on be able to play golf again...who knows maybe it will improve his game?
All I ask of our friends and family is that the prayers won't stop and that you will wait a while to call or come by....as you might know the hospital is not a place to rest or sleep....and please remember if you have a cold or anything that he might catch from you just wait and you can see him at a later time.....e-mails are welcome and I will do my best to keep everyone informed and answered......it is my job and I am glad to do it, because I know how much you all care....we are so blessed to have friends and family like all of you.......Love Roger and Dianne

Tumor destroyed by cryotherapy

Roger was resting when I left him at 9:30 tonite...His surgery was about three hours and the tumor doctor still says it is very unusual and did not elect to remove it, but take some more of it ...send it to Walter Reed and freeze and kill the tumor and let the body do the rest.....he thinks that his pain will slowly go away, but that it will increase for this next week or so while the healing process begins...yipee more morphine....he still has more tests to undergo, but I think that they are just trying to be very thorough and are definitely not very fast at it. I will go back in the am, but I don't know that he will be coming home tomorrow....he has a catheder, IV, Morhpine drip and a drain tube where the surgery took place.....His arm and shoulder are numb from the block they did and he was not liking that....I think that he thinks he won't be able to ever feel his hand and arm......we thank everyone for their prayers for Roger and our little Colbie....looks like the power of prayer and how loud it sounded in the heavens really worked....just keep them coming....we love all of you and want to thank you....you know who you are......TBC

Twas the night before surgery

Roger finally had to call today to find out what time his surgery was...it will be at 1:30 in the afternoon on Tuesday April 28th...He is definitely ready, just hope we both can sleep tonight.
I will try to blog or get a phone chain going to let all of you know what is happening when I know....it might not be until 6 or 7 at night....I will be staying in Denver hopefully at the hospital...I just don't know much more than this for now...I do know that Colbie Marie Hanson is the most beautiful baby ever and is progressing slow but very sure.....We are ever so thankful for all of the well wishes and prayers....keep them coming Roger and Dianne

Pass interception

Colton had a flag footbal game today and intecepted a pass...it was awesome...He so loves that he has a baby sister....greatful today for family and friends...Mary and Duncun came with dinner and we had nice time....Roger got tired and went to bed early....we are counting the days and hours now til his surgery so that we can have some answers......Little Colbie is hanging in there and she is doing as well as she can for now.....she is still the prettiest baby ever....TBC Dianne

Saturday,Saturday...Saturday...Saturday

Reminds me of an Elton John song eh? Today I had to leave hubby home alone again while I taught class in Niwot....Long Day but got home to a wonderful dinner by Sandi and Duane...thank you Duane for caulking our bathroom....I 'll pay you back somehow.....Also wanted to thank Don Cossel for lunches for my husband and for all of those surprises for the golf tourney this fall....you are great....
Today Roger seems to still be coping with the pain and I have not been to see my little peanut granddaughter since yesterday....I might go up there tonite when Chad is there feeding her....how about that?
It is in the rough times when you really notice who comes to your side to help you thru this trying time....we have so many wonderful friends and it is hard to put into words just what you all mean to us......
Surgery is just around the corner on the 28th and for Roger it cannot come soon enough, we just hope it will cure the pain and he can play golf (one of his favorite things to do)again....Not much else to report this rainy day....take care all TBC Dianne

thank you Joe for coming by to see Roger and for you and Helen passing along some very important information....we really appreciate that....you are grat people and friends and we love ya

today is a sunny day

It is still and orange day, but I forgot a few people and that is Neal Mize who I know would do anything for Roger except pay him a compliment.....they love to curse at one another and so far I ahve not heard anything from the old man.....what is up with that Mize???? thanks for being our friend and for marrying Donna....that is all for now.......

today is a sunny day

I have chosen orange today because it is my grandson Colton's favorite color and one of my favorite colors........Roger seems good today and had another day filled with friends and small activities.....we had a nice dinner provided by patti puzo and then I am trying to fill everyone in on the doings for today with Roger and Colbie.....Chad is taking on the 9:00 pm feeding shift of which I am so very proud of him to even do that,,, he has been playing mr. mom and doing the house and Colton and working to boot....Tina is an awesome mom and is very patient and kind......Roger is doing good for today and very anxious to get this whole thing behind him....we never know what the future may hold , but if it were up to our great friends and family we would be celebrating and having the biggest party ever......soon I hope....4 more days til surgery......thanks for all who are invloved in our life....we love you.....Sandy and Duane, Donna. Patti you are wonderful cooks we really appreciate it.....Love you too Mary Lou and Duncan and Tom and Lynn and Beth and Dennis, and timn and Lynda and Carol and Dan and Mary and Larry and George and Mike and if I have forgotten anyone please forgive me, because I am not home a lot to see who all came by....Just know that you are all appreciated and loved by us..... TBC Dianne Love you Patti Miller and Tom and Lynn I could go on and on.......

can't forget the cinnamon roll lady

thank you patti puzo for all the nourishment that you provide us....the cinnamon rolls are of course roger's favorite and he actually only gives me the morsals....your bread and the other food and just your being there whenever I need to come over.....thank you soooo much....you are truly one of a kind.....love ya dianne

Thursday and looking better

Thanks for all the company for Roger and the food...Mowing the lawn by our great neighbor Larry and for lunch by Dixie....and Don Cossel....visits by lots of friends and calls ....we are so fortunate to have such a wonderful lot of friends......Thank you all.....
Roger seemed happier today and his pain seems to be under control for now....just really looking forward to the surgery and some results.....Our anniversary was spent together and that is all that matters.....Colbie Marie Hanson is out of her incubator and now weighs a wopping 4lbs.3 oz......she is still the most beautiful baby ever...besides our others....Tina seems better today and Chad is even going in for the 9:00 pm feedings himself....way to go Dad ! ! TBC dianne

its another day !!!!

Today is our 14th anniversary and I tease Roger that I must be his favorite wife because I am the longest running Mrs. Torbeck besides his Mom.....we will spend a quiet evening at home. Roger is always big on pampering me for anniversaries and for my birthday.....I know that he feels bad, but I told him as long as we have each other nothing else matters....He is being a very brave and patient man.....I called the VA today to confirm that his surgery was really the 28th and they said yes, but we wouldn't know until Monday about what time it will be.....they will keep him, but I don't know for how long....I will take my laptop so that I can keep you all informed.....
Tina and baby are doing OK....Tina and I had a minor melt down because Colbie is only 4 days old and has had to endure so much too....wires and feeding tubes and she is so tiny and cute and innocent we just are glad she won't remember any of this, but we will. It is so very hard for a mother to leave her baby and go outside of the hospital...I feel so bad for Tina. Hopefully Colton and Chad will cheer her up tonight.
TBC Power of Prayer it really works! ! !

good days bad days

Good day because our little premature grandaughter is doing ok for now and Roger tried today to get off his pain med and found that he could not....went to his moms for dinner and right after dinner he was not doing well and we came home.....his pain is real and what is really bad is that he has to wait so long for his surgery....that is the way of the VA for ya...paperwork and when THEY have time fo you and only then....I have tried to bark loud and nobody seems to hear but Roger...and then he trys to calm me down...it is horrible to watch someone that you love in that much anguish and pain for so long now.....all of youask what you can do....and my response is just be his friend and pray like you never prayed before.....thank you ...unitl next time Dianne

happy day for us

Today was the birth of our little....and I mean little Colbie Marie Hanson...born april 18, 2009 at 7:58 am at Longmont United Hospital....she weighed in at a whopping 4 lbs and is 17 inches long with dark hair and dark eyes.....of course she is the cutest baby ever besides our other 5 grandchildren.....we love them all.....Roger hasn't seen her yet, just the pictures we took today....You can find some of them on facebook (Tina Hanson) I think....

Roger's brother John is here from Ca. for a visit and he has had in the last couple of days friends call and also stop by....He really appreciates all of his friends and so do I....we just don't know what we would do without all of you....thank you to all who have brought books and food and plain just good vibes and wishes for Roger to be OK again.....His morphine seems to be helping and as long as he doesn't make any sudden moves.....eveyone keeps asking why do we have to wait so long for his surgery, but that is the way of the VA and its system.....it is very maddening and I feel helpless.....( and as many of you know that is hard for me to keep my mouth shut)TBC

11 days til surgery

Last night was a good night for sleeping. I think that Roger being on Morphine and sleeping good helped me sleep good. I am heading up to Longmont Hospital to see how Tina and the baby to be are doing today and then it is off to Niwot. Roger and Dean (our cat and Roger's best friend) will hold down the fort until I get back. Will keep in touch now only if things change. thanks to all of you who have checked in with us. We really appreciate it and love you all...Roger and Dianne

Thursday at the VA

Roger went to his oncologist today to confirm surgery for April 28th on a tumor of unknown origin right now. Because of his fight with prostate cancer and given that he is on Morphine right now for the pain, we just need them to take this thing out so he can get better. His PSA level has been rising again giving indication that the cancer might be active somewhere in his body...they do not know whether this tumor is the result of that. Pathology will be sent to Walter Reed in Washington DC after it has been removed. We are praying for the best and for him to be pain free and the play some golf this summer.

Also you may or may not know that Chad and Tina and Colton are awaiting their little baby girl....she is trying to come too soon and Tina has been hospitalized since last Sunday in hopes they can keep her in her mommy's tummy a while longer so that she can be fully developed when she arrives.....she weighs about three pounds right now and lungs are not up to what they should be.....again we are praying for them too.