we would like some good news

Roger has now had yet another MRI, CT scan and Pet scan........MRI showed up more lesions in the spine without symptoms......He will see Dr. Barnett, his oncologist next week..... He will see the nurses of Dr. Barnett to discuss what it entails to go through Chemo and what Insurance will pay for and etc...etc... tomorrow......We were really thinking that some maybe good news would come today.....but Roger asked the question...."will I ever be able to play golf again?" and the answer was you can putt, but not swing, because of the lesions in your spine and the risk of more fractures and pain. He really is taking it well on the outside, but on the inside he is not liking any of this.....He did say that if Dr. Barnett thinks that Chemo won't really help matters that he really is not up for it either......He is not doing that bad with the pain right now, so I think that he thought that there might be some good news.....He desrves some good news.....does anyone have any gooooood news????? we would reallly like to hear it. take care and remeber that we love and pray every day for a miracle and so should you......Love the Torbecks

Sunday a day of rest

Roger has rested all day because I think that he may have overdone it yesterday at the Hanson Memorial....by saying overdid it ....means to him... that he walked around a little ...saw some friends and talked with them...stayed for about an hour or two and then had to leave....I know it was so hard for him to leave me there and go home to a quiet house, when all of us were enjoying the beautiful Colorado sunshine on the golf course. I played but not for very long, helped with the tournament and came home. Today, Roger was not even up for going to see Jeff or Chad and have lunch...he just wanted to stay at home.....He is scheduled for his MRI tomorrow and then the next thing is a pet scan....if the Doctor says that his cancer has not progressed beyond a certain point, then they will start Chemotherapy to slow down the process of the cancer.....I know Roger wants to try it...they say a 50/50 chance of it even helping...and again not curing. At this point he still is trying to sort thru things and just go from day to day.
His meds are working OK, but not good enough for him or how he would like to be feeling....but again he does not complain and it was a heartbreaking moment to see him have to leave a golf course without being able to even swing a club....we know that there is much more to life than Golf, but it was still a big part of his life.
Thank you Sandi for the delicious soup and bread and goodies for our Sunday dinner.....and a great big thank you for all who participated in the Hanson Memorial Tournament.....very special people in our lives.....Love and be loved Dianne

Here we are.R

Here we are in the fall time of year...usually my favorite, but not this year.....Roger has been struggeling with nasua and loss of appetite and pain.....we have him on some addtional meds now and today they seemed to help him. He was actually hungry tonight....We find that with this disease the days that we think are good ones would not be so good to the normal person, but we take what we can get at this point....thank you Joie for the glazed donuts and the kind words...Dale the flowers are beautiful....Patti, it is an honor to be your neighbor and I am so very lucky to have you near. Kelley, Dan, Kehlings kards are a kick! ! ! and everyone that calls and comes by, you know who you are because sometimes I am not home and I don't know who comes over....All of you are our gifts and we thank you every day for your friendship. Big golf tourney this weekend (Hanson Memorial) so Roger is letting John, his brother use his clubs....that is true brotherly love......Roger and I are hanging in there because we love each other so very much........

Lets celebrate Tuesday

Roger is doing better than he has for a while.....He drove for the dealership to the auto auction! ! ! can you beleive it.???/...one day so bad and then bada boom bada bing.....Not to say he is healed, but we cannot look a good day in the mouth so to speak.....the facts are still there , but when we have a good day I will sing it out loud.....this has been going on for four and a half years! ! ! .......we just keep plugging away and want to have the best and give the best of every day......what have you done today? Roger and I want to know.....make it a great day tomorrow....love The Torbecks