Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Hello everyone,

I thought that I would do kind of an update / Annual Holiday letter

I am trying to remember this season is not about me, not about Roger, not about anyone or thing except the child that was born on Christmas day to save us.
This Christmas I am more aware than ever it is not in the tree or the gifts we buy and give or the families that get together or don't get together. This season will come and go like they all do.
I would like to have all of you who read this take a small moment not think of Roger and I in a sorrowful way. We are making the most out of our time together, as small as it may be now. Roger's world gets smaller every day and he is slipping away from me and from you all. Please don't take the unreturned phone calls to heart.
You all know how much Roger loves his friends and he will continue to love you way beyond this and so will I.
Ken, Roger's son is here again to be with his Dad. Hospice will come this week and hopefully help his son understand this process of which we will all face at one time or another in our lives.
Roger's life is very simple now....He is loosing strength in his legs and pretty soon will not be able to walk.
As far as seeing him.....I urge you to call me and go thru me now......Feel free to call me 303-517-6324 cell. I will let you know his status.
People ask what they can do, but there is really nothing anyone can do, but to live their lives to the fullest.....easy to say hard to do......

Here's to Love in our hearts and hoping you all have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Love forever...........Roger and Dianne

November ! ! Really?

Hi all,

Here it is November and the Holidays are Approaching. I wish that I could get excited about them and in my heart I know that I will, but in my soul....well it is aching for Roger.
He is "hanging in there" as the saying goes....he is not bedridden nor does he act really, really sick, but you know that he is on tons of pain meds now just to keep him from suffering horribly.
Hospice comes about once every two weeks and surveys everything. Roger always puts on a pretty good act for them....in my mind, I know he still wants to be that strong and confident man I married.
This November, marks this dreadful disease that he has been fighting, fifth year. Some of the months have been ok, but it absolutely stripped our marriage and took it to a much challenged level.
I struggel with knowing what to say and when...how to treat him....with confidence and hope? with pure blunt reality of what this disease is doing to him and to us? I just don't know! ! !
Roger still is not a complainer. He still gets visits from dear friends and family. This week all the way from Nebraska. His cousins Larry and Doreen came just to visit with him and Roger's Mom. Thanks for the Honey and the visit, Roger and I loved it !!!
A very loving and good friend just told me the other day that when her father was ill and dying he would get upset because he said he felt that every day that he was alive just made him that more longing for the life he used to have. Roger is kinda like a prisoner and his life and life experiences are very small now andI know feels that same way sometimes. People say he looks so good, but the reality is, he has lost about 40 pounds and granted he is very tan (from sitting outside and reading his millions of books) the CANCER is on the inside just eating away his life of doing anything, but sitting in a chair and reading to get away from the thought that he has cancer ....if only for a while in his mind.
We don't know how it has progressed other than the pain meds have been increased significantly in the last month.
His appetite goes up and down as does his attitude......I am so helpless in this struggle to make everything alright.
Again I just ask you to pray for peace and understanding
With love,
Dianne

OCTOBERFEST / TORBECKFEST

CANNOT BELIEVE THAT IT IS OCTOBER AND THE LEAVES ARE CHANGING AND SO ARE WE.

ROGER AND I HAVE HAD HOSPICE IN NOW FOR A WHILE AND THEY SEEM TO HELP ROGER GET A HOLD OF HIS PAIN AND THEN THE DISEASE PROGRESSES AND HE IS BACK TO SUFFERING UNTIL HE AGREES TO TAKE ON MORE OF THE PAIN MEDICATION. IT DOES MAKE HIM MORE SLEEPY...IN FACT YESTERDAY MORNING I KEPT THINKING THAT HE WAS GOING TO GET UP AND IT WAS 10:30 am AND I WENT IN THE BEDROOM TO SEE HIM AND THERE HE AND THE CAT (DEAN) WERE SLEEPING STILL LIKE LITTLE BABIES.

HE STILL READS A LOT BUT NOW THAT EVEN MAKES HIM SLEEPY. I GUESS IT IS A TRADE OFF........BE SLEEPY OR BE IN EXTREME PAIN?

ROGER'S BROTHER IS HERE FOR A WEEK TAKING CARE OF SOME THINGS FOR THEIR MOM. SHE IS STILL GOING PRETTY STRONG, BUT NEEDS HELP WITH SOME THINGS OF WHICH ROGER JUST CANNOT DO ANYMORE.

BY THE SOUNDS OF IT, WE SHOULD HAVE A BIG THANKSGIVING AT THE TORBECK RANCH......JEFF AND FAMILY.....CHAD AND FAMILY....KEN AND SONNY (his girlfriend) JOHN AND DORIS, GERT AND AUNT WILMA.........I JUST HOPE THAT ROGER IS UP FOR THAT.....WE WILL JUST MAKE IT WORK SOMEHOW ! ? ! ?

THIS TIME OF YEAR WE TEND TO REFLECT AND BE THANKFUL FOR ALL OF THE BLESSINGS THAT WE HAVE HAD AND HAVE SHARED WITH ALL OF YOU......OUR NEWEST BLESSING IS OUR BABY JOLIE FAITH HANSON BORN TO JEFF AND JOLENE ON OCT 1, 2010. WE HAVE NOT SEEN HER YET, BUT WE HOPE TO ON THANKSGIVING.

PRAY FOR PEACE, LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING the world would be a better place if all of these were to come true
until next time Dianne and Roger

Short but Sweet

Hello all who are following this blog................
Roger is definitely holding his own at this point.....had visits from his son and brother and that always seems to keep him going........
His pain management from Hospice has been OK, and as a matter of fact they came today and said there is no reason why someone has to endure any pain and they would try to help as much a possible so that Roger would be able to do some of the things that he is afraid of doing because he suffers so badly afterwards because of the pain.......
Roger's son and brother were here for a few days and you can always see him do better when there is something to do better for.......so don't be afraid to come and see him or to call him....he loves knowing that people want to see him, although he is a little embarressed that he has lost so much weight and those"bird" legs of his are really" bird legs".......
We try to keep positive and most of all laugh every day.....He has his moments and so do I , but with great friends and family how can anyone be mad?

Love to all of you and hope to see or hear from you soon.
Roger and Dianne

ITS AMAZING

WOW where does the time go?
Since I last wrote Roger and I have called in Hospice and their "team" as they call themselves.They have been here a couple of times. The nurse, the social worker, the Chaplain, the CNA, the Doctor and the Physcologist. We feel like royalty with our own staff. They are wonderful people.
Roger decided that he did not want to keep filling his body with chemicals that just made him sicker and also that he would be basically a trail study and have to go to Denver everyday. The cancer is ramp'ed in his bones now, but the good news for now is his Hospice team has seemed to get the right combination of drugs to allow him to be about a 1 or 2 pain level and not a 9 or 10 like it was. His appetite is better and his mental is better also.
He is excited to have his son visit over the Labor day weekend and also his brother.
Roger still cannot play golf or anything physical, but his friend and neighbor Larry keeps him busy with his grandson's fixer-up Pick up and other projects regarding cars. Thank you Larry ( if only I could get you to quit chewing) Roger still reads a lot and neighbors of ours got him a subscription to Netflex and he loves getting movies in the mail....Thanks Patti and Mark. ! ! ! Other neighbors help with filling in concrete holes and bringing eggs and oh ! !...and fish too (Mark and Laurie--- Neal and Donna) We have such a great bunch out here and I thank each and everyone of you. Some other friends bring by Zuchinni Bread and flowers and cards and love and prayers.......we just cannot thank you all enough..Rogers "good ole boy group" takes him to lunch or brings it by when Roger is feeling up to it and lately he has ! ! ! thanks Donnie and Mort and Tom and Barry and Kelly and any of you that go to lunch with Roger.....it really helps to get him out and about.
So I just wanted to make sure that amongst all of the bad news and stories that I pass along to all who read this, there is some good, too.
I must not forget you, Helen and Joe....you always keep in touch and we thank you for that and you too Dan and Carol and Tim and Lynda and Shirley and Terry.....If I have forgotten anyone please know that I don't mean to ...I can now blame it on my age....60 is a hard age to live up to or should I say actually BE......there is no benefit other than I think that now I can put pink flamingos and other yard art out and no one will fault me for it or think I am weird, just old.......
Take care everyone and keep those prayers coming ....I think that he is hearing us and wanting to help also. It's AMAZING ! ! !

Since we last talked (or wrote)

Not much to say this time but yet I think that I need to write a few things down........
Roger is in pain of which he endures every day throughout the day and sometimes even into the night...his pain makes him weak and upset .....well lets say he is not himself and hasn't been for a long long time......
Those of you who wonder "what can we do?" well, there is really nothing but just to laugh often, love, and care about people daily. We know that all of you are with us in spirit....I just wish that I could make all of you understand what it is like and then again I want to protect you and Roger from all of this madness.
I am powerless, as all of you. We just must believe that somehow, someday this crazy life here on earth, was worth it and was worth living no matter how short or long of a time we are here.
Hospice will now be involved in our process and I say ours because in life and death it usually involves other people. We welcome you to be as involved or non-involved as you want or need to be....
I have a deep and abiding faith that this is not all there is.
We just must get thru this earthly trial to be free from burden.......
These words don't seem to be mine and I am writing this to all to be with us in this time of trial....because we will all be faced with it at some point in time and I don't think that any of us are truely ready for it.
Roger would love to hear from you with a card or a call....He just is not very social in person anymore, but you can ask him yourself if he would like you to visit him......I will totally let that up to him....his cell is 303-775-1972.....Hope he doesn't kill me for that....but all of you that know the old Roger would already know his phone number.
Take care and I hope that this didn't sound like a sermon....it was meant to be quite the opposite .... As we all know, Roger does not like to attend church.....I know that his mother has accepted that long ago.
With love in our hearts for all of you who read this,
Roger and Dianne

Quote for the day " You never know how strong you really are until being strong is the only choice you really have"

Decision Time

Roger has been faced with a vry difficult decesion after his Doctor's appointment yesterday (Friday July 9

Dr Barnett gave us the report that the pet scan and the MRI showed progression of the prostate cancer in Roger's bones....Spine, shoulders, ribs, arms legs.......It has not invaded his organs at this time...nonetheless his cancer is not responding to anything that they have given him.....Zomita injections will still be given to help strengthen weakend bones due to the cancer....small dose of steroids for pain tolerance and for appettite and Dr. has doubled the dose of fentynol pain patch so that Roger won't have to pop so many percocets when his pain isn't tolerable. Dr. offered Roger to go to Denver to see his colleague at the cancer center there, again for any trial studies Roger might fit the criteria for, to also see if he could get a drug that is currently being used for women and breast cancer that has metastisized to the bone (FDA approved for use in women with breast cancer but not for men with prostate cancer yet) Dr. Barnett is going to work on getting approval somehow for Roger if he can. Roger's bones are so fragile now because of the cancer that if he were to do anything to break any of his spine...it would create a whole new set of problems such as his spinal fluid and surgery to fix the bones that were damaging the spinal fluid.
The other to consider is Hospice at this time if he choses not to go forth with any trial treatments.
Well, I could go on and on and know that some of you want to know the details so it is easier to comprehend that Roger is really not doing very well. His spirit has been broken and I hear him talk to some of you on the phone and he still keeps his sense of humor....He has never once said "why me?" , but he would like everyone to know that sometimes the fight isn't worth the battle. I will and am doing everything in my power to help him through this very difficult fight. He came into my life when I really needed him and gave me his strong hand and his reassuring deep voice to show me my life was still worth living. I must be by his side with whatever decesion he makes about his upcoming treatments or care in his life and I know you all will do the same..... BECAUSE WE LOVE HIM

July 2, 2010

Today was like any other day in the past two years ....Dianne goes to work, Roger does what he can to help me with the household chores and we wait for the phone call from the Doctor
When I got home tonight Roger said that his oncologist called and said that the MRI results showed that it was not in his vital organs, but that the bone cancer has progressed a lot...He wants to talk with us next friday to give results of the Pet scan and to talk about any options now....from what I know before there are not a lot.... if any....
Roger has been put on two patches instead of just one for the pain.....He is getting more and more defeated and I can see that in him.....staying positive is the hardest thing to do in this situation.....I know that everyone is praying and wanting this to just go away by the power of positive thinking and praying.....I want that too.
We will keep you updated when we see the doctor next friday.
Thanks and have a wonderful Fourth

IT'S BEEN A WHILE

JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU THAT TIME REALLY DOES PASS VERY QUICKLY....ALL THE MORE TO LIVE EVERY DAY TO ITS COMPLETE AND UTTER FULLEST.....YEH RIGHT......IT IS A NICE SAYING BUT DO WE , ANY OF US REALLY DO THAT.????....I KNOW I AM SO GUILTY OF NOT......ENOUGH OF THE LECTURE...HERE IS THE LATEST ABOUT THE MAN I LOVE........SO VERY VERY MUCH.....

WE WERE ABLE TO GO TO MESQUI8TE THIS YEAR, BUT NOT PLAY GOLF....WE (ROGER, ME AND ROGER'S MOM) WERE ARE ABLE TO FLY TO IDAHO TO SEE ROGER'S SON AND GRANDAUGHTERS FOR ONE WEEK OVER FATHERS DAY......HE REALLY WANTED TO DO THIS AND I FOUND A WAY TO ESCAPE FROM MY WORK TO GO WITH. WEATHER WAS AWEFUL, BUT WE WERE ABLE TO SPEND TIME AND THAT WAS WHAT WAS IMPORTANT.........

GOT BACK AND OF COURSE HAD DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS( THAT IS NEVER AN UPLIFTING EXPERIENCE), ALTHOUGH ROGER'S DOCTOR IS VERY NICE....HE SEEMS TO HAVE ONLY BAD NEWS FOR US AND FULLY ADMITS THAT HE IS SO VERY SORRY THAT IS ALL HE HAS FOR ROGER........
WE NOW TAKE HIS INFORMATION AND JUST NOD OUR HEADS AND WALK OUT THE DOOR.......
THE CHEMO ROGER HAS BEEN DOING IS NOT WORKING IN HIS FAVOR AND HIS BLODD TEST SHOW THAT HIS PSA HAS TRIPLED AND THAT WAS NOT THE NEWS THE DOCTOR WANTED TO DELIVER TO US.
THERE IS REALLY NO OTHER OPTION THAN TO DO A PET SCAN, FIND OUT THE PROGRESSION OF THIS TERRIBLE DISEASE AND TO POSSIBLY GO TO DENVER FOR SOME OF THOSE TRIAL STUDIES THAT HE HAS TO QUALIFY FOR UNDER SPECIFIC RULES AND REGULATIONS. WE ARE BOTH JUST NOT READY TO TALK ABOUT ANY OF THIS UNTIL NEXT WED WHEN THE SCAN IS DONE AND THEN WE PROBABLY WONT HEAR ANYTHING FOR AT LEAST A WEEK.

THE DOCTOR IS SHAKING HIS HEAD JUST LIKE THE PEOPLE WHO SEE ROGER OFTEN....HE DOES NOT LOOK OR ACT, MOST OF THE TIME, LIKE A MAN WITH TERMINAL CANCER.......I CAN TELL HE DOESN'T FEEL WELL, BUT AGAIN HE IS NOT A COMPLAINER......SO I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW BAD IT REALLY IS

HE IS NOW ON A PATCH EVERY THREE DAYS THAT SEEMS TO KEEP HIS PAIN IN CHECK AND HE DOES HAVE TO POP A PERCOCET EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE....HIS APPETITE IS OK BUT NOT GOOD AND HE HAS LOST ABOUT 30 POUNDS.

WE TRY TO STAY POSITVE, BUT WHEN YOU ARE IN THE THICK OF THE HUNT IT IS SO VERY HARD TO KEEP UP THE ATTITUDE.

LAST SUMMER WAS A BEAR FOR HIM AND NOW WE BEGIN THIS SUMMER JUST LIKE THE OTHER ONE....
PRAY FOR PEACE AND HEALING AND REMEMBER TO LAUGH AND LOVE AND DANCE OFTEN.......IT DOES A BODY GOOD.....

WE WILL LET YOU KNOW ABOUT THE RESULTS OF THE SCAN WHEN WE KNOW MORE

LOVINGLY, DIANNE AND ROGER

UP-TO-DATE

Just wanted to keep everyone up to date on Roger and the family......Roger will be 66 tomorrow May 12th.....He really isn't that enthused, as most of us are not either about our birthdays.....but we should be, don't you think? They are milestones of our lives here on earth and if we were to look back at each and every day that led us to this day.....we would be amazed at how much has happened and how much we experienced and how much we have loved and cried and fell down and got back up again only to find another birthday gone by. WHEW ! ! ! that wore me out just writing about it.....I will try to make it special for him ...although men are hard to buy for and to please anyway on their b-days...but I will give it my best shot.....bought him an ice cream cake.....because he will eat cold things pretty well.....he loves to wear shorts and his jean shorts are all full of holes....so I hope that he likes his new jean shorts and some comfy sweat pant shorts......I will hope to make him laugh as I always say something stupid in the morning when we wake up and now it is my destiny to make him laugh just one good belly laugh til it brings tears to our eyes. Then, I am usually off to work and he usually occupies his time reading and playing with our cat....maybe taking a nap or two.....going to the store....puttzing around the house...doing our laundry.....he even made his famous turkey meatloaf for our dinner tonight.....
If you get a chance call him and wish him a good b-day....maybe the sun will shine tomorrow and make it a happier day for all.......Dianne
I am going to stay home tomorrow with him ande just do whatever he wants until he cannot stand me anymore and tells me to go to work and get out of his hair..........oh well

What a time ! ! !

Roger is still fighting the fight.....He has list about 20 lbs., but still trys to eat and drink as much as he can stand......food just doesn't taste good to him.....He is now undergoing chemo treatment to help with pain and also new medication which is in the form of a patch every three days....still taknig some percocet on occasion......we are still planning on making the trip to Mesquite this year...we won't play any golf , but just be with our friends and hang out...planning on stopping in Grand Junction to see Jeff and the family for a night to and from......
Had a trying week this week with our little Colbie Marie Hanson...last week celebrating her first b-day and this week celebrating her coming thru her heart surgery....while having a tornado warning while the actual srugery was taking place at Children's hospital this past thursday...we were all just beside ourselves....but she made it thru just fine and is home now doing good. They will monitor her closely for the next month and for months and years to come....She was such a trooper and such a great little patient....the doctors and nurses were so impressed with her. Thank you for all of your prayers and well wishes....it really does help to know how much people think and pour out their love at a time like this.....it is so very much appreciated......
We will keep you all posted on any changes....hope we can report only good

Continuing with more Chemo

Roger was given the option of more Chemo or nothing.....He has opted for more because of his pain level and because the cancer is still not invading his vital organs...It just might help him thru this next level of Cancer "Hell" he is enduring. He will still recieve his injection of Zomita and Lupron. He will start this next week....He told the Doctor that he wanted to LIVE as long as he could... we are all hoping that it will be with some quality, but of the last few weeks he has been in a lot of pain......He reads a lot and sleeps and his appetite is not that good anymore......
He says that his sense of smell and taste is gone....His hair and nails are growing again to just be erased again because of the next round of chemo.....Our son Jeff thinks that there will be a miracle about to happen and that Roger will be OK......truth be known.....nobody knows what will happen in the next months......I only want some peace and some pain relief for Roger. It is so very hard living with someone that you love and you just cannot help them, just be their support system and cheerleader of which I have some years of experience with.........
Just wanted to keep everyone up-to-date of this newest news........thank you for caring about us......Roger and Dianne
Please keep us in your prayers as we will all of you ! ! !
Colbie Marie Hanson will be undergoing Heart surgery on April 22nd (Roger's and My 15th Anniversary) Please pray all goes well for her little heart thank you
Aunt Wilma is home and doing as well as she can do for now......
Gert is doing well also
Happy Easter and Spring Everyone

Red Beer

Subject for the day was Red Beer....Dr. Barnett (Roger's Oncologist) never had heard of Red beer until this week and Roger telling him about it....He is this very sincere, baby faced, well informed Dr. that has won our hearts with his desire to give Roger the best he knows how to give.....this appointment needed to be more light hearted and matter of fact than the last one...the last appointment was very heavy and hard for all of us. So, Red Beer came up and we ran with it.
Today Dr Barnett really listened to Roger and what Roger wanted....I asked, of course a lot of questions and Dr. Barnett was very willing to answer them and explained a lot to us. He is all for Roger taking a break, but has urged him to think about continuing therapy and so does his nurses...Roger will think about it, meanwhile Roger is doing some unconventional things and is not in a great deal of pain and even getting an MRI tomorrow to see if he can get back to playing a little golf without breaking bones that have been destroyed by his cancer.......
All in All it was a very good session with the Doc. Roger got his dose of Zomita and his Hormone shot.......
Roger still reads a lot and laughs at me whenever I can be funny enough for him to laugh at me.
We are staying positive and thanking everyone for the prayers.
Aunt Wilma is finally home again after two weeks in the Hospital with Pneumonia and her Congest. heart and her COPD and a lot of other things....she still has her wits and mind about her and wanted to try it again at home......my adorable Colbie had her heart appointment today and the verdict was heart surgery, but Chad is researching and is reluctant because of lack of evidence. He doesn't want his precious baby daughter to undergo something that may not be necessary....but I know that it is inevitable....he is just scared and needs more time....I know that she will be fine, even Tina says lets go ahead with it, but Chad is her daddy and is very apprehensive of it all....and I don't blame him....she would be cared for at Children's Hospital and I know that she will be fine, but it is hard to give your child to a surgeon that you don't know and give permission to work on her little heart......
Well enough for now.....I could go on and on......but the real message in all of this is that we are thankful and blessed and loved to the fullest.......
Make it a great day, month and year
Lovingly Dianne

Just coasting for a while

Roger is just coasting for a while and thinking of alternatives at this point....we have a couple in mind and want to really take a good look and research them.....because....Roger was not very keen on the trial study they had available in Denver at the Rocky Mt Cancer Center. His oncologist called today to see why Roger was not wanting to do this...they both decided that he would keep up with the Zomita injection and the Hormone therapy and monitor his blood count here in Longmont.

I am totally letting this decision up to Roger, but trying to give him information and things to think about during his time of contemplation. He has been through so much treatment in the last few years and it wears on one, especially when there is not a good end result....all of the time and struggle and doctors and poking and proding can get to a person. He is as good a patient as they come........

He is looking forward to some nice weather as we all are, but his golfing days are probably not going to be. That is the hardest thing I think that he is facing although it may not be what any of you would consider to be important. Golf made him happy and I try my hardest every day to make him laugh. Thank you for all of the funny e-mails you send from time to time...some of them get us both laughing so hard we pee our pants ! ! !

So......come by....call....or just pray that Roger can fight his fight without a lot of pain.

Lovingly Dianne

Not the news we wanted to hear

Roger's cancer is not responding to the chemotherapy like the doctor thought in the last few months.....his PSA is no longer a good indicator for his cancer that is in his bones in fact in the last five months it has spread to more places in his spine I have the pet scan to prove it....Dr. Barnett explained very well to us both this morning, but to reiterate it at this time .... I just cannot and do it any justice.......for the most part it was not what we both wanted to hear nor was it the news that our dear Dr. wanted to give us.....he really loves Roger and thinks of him as a strong, wonderful man as do I........Roger took the news much better than I did.....as far as any more treatments, there is really nothing that is going to be a strong winner at this point....a different type of chemo that MIGHT respond.......a trial study of which is not available to Roger because it is not in his vital organs at this time.( that, being here with Dr. Barnett) Dr. Barnett did say that he would e-mail his buddies at Denver Midtown and at University Hospital to see if they had anything available that Roger would be eligible for. It is very complicated and very hard to explain to anyone. If you want go to ustoo.com and just see how complicated and how much information is out there, please do so, if not I really don't blame you. It is a lot of information that is very hard to consume and put your arms around.
Roger is one heck of a guy and is taking this like no other person I know would......it is me that is the weak link in the armour right now, but I too will have to rise to the occasion and be strong for him and for me.....
All of you that have been praying for us ...we thank you....please don't stop.....I was told by my brother some time ago that God ALWAYS answers our prayers....it may just not be the answer that we are looking for........
We love and have each other....just make sure that you love and have each other too and we will all be good.......................................................
With Love and Gratitude, Roger and Dianne

News flash for upcoming events

February will be the true test of what is to come......Tuesday Feb 2nd are the lab tests then....wed the pet scan.. then tues. Feb 9th is the Doctor appt with the results of the tests and to find out whether Roger goes in for more Chemo or not....He is such a patient man and is taking all of this unlike no other.....He never blows up....I just don't know how he does it.....Roger's son is here looking to move here if he can land a job and also if he can sell his home in Idaho and find one here . He is looking to move back home......time will tell., as in all things in our life right now. thanks again for all your support and for your friendship.... we truly apprecaite it.....fun times at poker with our Mesquite friends...you guys are all awesome......
TBC everyone asks what they can do....well.........PRAY PRAY PRAY....thank you so much

Maybe, Is the word

Roger thought that he was going in for the last of the Chemo treatments today.....and hopefully that is the case.....we must all think and pray that in two weeks when the pet scan is done that results are what we want them to be and there is no progression of this horrible cancer in any of Roger's organs. The Doctor will determine from the pet scan whether to continue the chemo and also from the blood tests. Roger was so hoping that this was it, but unfortunately his fight continues. He is a little down, but continues to keep his chin up and so very much wants to not have to go to the doctor so much and to live a simple normal life without pain and drugs. I will keep positive that this can be accomplished. It is such a long and trying process. It really keeps one humble and wanting just the simple things in life and to wake up in the morning to know that it will be a good day.....the definition of a good day is up to each individual. Mine is
Please Lord let me laugh and love and be thankful for whatever I have or even what I don't have........goodnight Dianne